Its Just A Number

Whether its age, your weight or your bank account. Many of us make this statement.

In truth, as I was getting ready for bed the other night, I was thinking about how much better my body has felt. I was thinking this because I didn’t feel great. I felt horribly inflamed. A feeling I knew all too well.

Its interesting, Ive heard of people being able to clear their energy towards a food sensitivity or allergy, I haven’t experienced that myself. What I have experienced is as soon as these food sensitivities were brought to my consciousness, my body is now quick to let me know when its not happy.

At 40 years old, I am keen to learn how to make goat cheese. This is slightly “big” only because Im the type of cook who just throws in whatever, I don’t measure. I decided I wanted to do this 2 weeks ago, when I realized that much of the commercial “goat” cheese sold… contains milk – meaning cows milk! I was so disappointed but keen to learn this new task.

Alas, after avoiding the “goat” cheese we have had in the fridge for a bit, that I bought and then one day as the thought popped into my head to flip it over and check the ingredients… so the herbed goat cheese has sat. Sadly after picking up some at Costco (which was the best place for GF stuff until we realized much of it has corn as well 😦 ) we found those have milk as well.

As I was thinking of this, I thought of how good I was feeling, how this has reminded me to truly stay aligned with ME. That heavy, inflammed feeling inside does NOT feel good, its painful and uncomfortable.

This journey was never about a number, never about reaching an ideal weight. Truthfully this journey has all been about FEELING good. Whatever that is!

I have realized as I have hit the “goal” weight that I somewhat set but never thought could happen… A number does NOT define us at all. Whether that is our weight, our bank account, our address. Whatever that number is, its simply just a number. The only way to gauge your OWN health – is truly HOW YOU FEEL! Even at the weight that I am… Im getting closer to doing some weight lifting (long as this rib stays in place), which I know will shift my “number” and that’s totally ok and healthy!!!

But, here’s the thing… when you begin to shift (if you choose to), be patient with your body, achieving this awareness takes time and doesn’t happen over night. If you have been taking anti-biotics for years, eating processed foods/drinks etc… it will take time for your body to properly flush that crap out. I couldn’t believe it when I could actually FEEL my body moving inside. Some was painful, it took time to sit with it and be ok with time. Be ok with putting that “number” aside and putting my health and how I feel, first!