Well one of the “reno season’s” that is.
With the changes we are making to our home (which are freaking incredible) it involves pushing our comfort zone – ok I will only speak for me – MY comfort zone in a very big way.
Its gotta get messy before our dream can come true. I can envision it too, expected because my 1st strength is Futuristic. Every strength has its good and challenging traits. Its ok.
Today is the day OUR space truly begins the transformation, but today is when the mess starts, and its weighing heavily on my heart.
I remind myself, this is just a moment in time. It will be ok. Looking back I KNOW it will be ok, I mean hello look what we have lived through. Honestly I know we all had our own experiences with PTSD after the basement flooded. I know without a doubt I struggled. However we rise, we choose to honor those feelings and rise as the same time. Some days this meant doing as little as possible, relaxing, watching a show, movie or series, allowing space. This week has been that for me again.
Interesting actually as I write this I realized the kitty who we welcomed into our family, also has challenges with transitions. The universe works in amazing ways, we have been loving on our Missy, also being patient and giving space. The same as what I crave and need during, what can feel like heavy, transitions. She just needed some love and patience, to learn its ok to trust.
Ive learned in my life though, that when it feels really challenging, heavy, hard or deep… its literally on the verge of something that feels freeing, open, like a deep breath, space, love, time, abundant. Like an arrow that’s pulled back before its released. Gaining momentum, becoming even more focused, flows in fast and lots of it – if you allow the time and patience when preparing.
11:11 My Spirit Junkie message from Gabby Bernstein was,
Simply taking a few moments to be present, acknowledge what is happening and my emotions surrounding that. Also realizing the truth of this. Its pushed my emotional eating this week. In a very very big way. Alas its been 90% healthy and all gluten free by my choice. What I am noticing though, is how I feel is very also affected by my “diet”, no this isn’t the right word, I honestly detest this word, it gives the wrong impression – my mental health is very much influenced by my eating lifestyle!
This week my little girl, who loves to bake, made some fresh cookies – oh my goodness. They were gluten free too, because thats the only flour we now use in our home. I can honestly say I did not indulge like the old me would have – BUT I did enjoy more than a few! Yesterday we went out snowmobiling with family and stopped at a couple restaurants to refuel our bellies! The food was wonderful, however gluten free is much more challenging in restaurants, unless very careful. Its not as serious as a peanut allergy, meaning it wont kill me, however it is just as important because it can cause a lot of discomfort, pain, inflammation, bloating, various digestive issues… which happened to me last night and is still affecting me today. When I physically feel these ways, it most certainly affects my emotions, add in hubby’s house task for today and yup emotions peaking!