I’ve been a very frustrating few months that has felt massively condensed in these last few weeks.
Today, I could feel myself getting super irritated after I got home. Yet, I was all alone. Literally given 30 min of pure alone time at home to clear mind.
Truthfully, with the fuckery that has been I have not been able to be as productive at work or at home. Which then weighs on me, differently but equally annoying.
Today, I had full intentions of once I got back to get into some stuff that I needed to get done. I just couldn’t do it.
Instead I opted to clean the kitchen.
THIS couldn’t have been more clarifying for me. Clutter is the biggest mind fuck there ever was! I can admit, I am not at my healthiest, mentally, when there is alot of clutter.
As I was washing dishes, things kept falling back into the sink, or my one new pot has a spot that won’t come off, or my phone that as it’s over 2 yrs old it’s full of glitches now. As I am typing the keyboard is glitching and erasing every other letter. Until I actually type that and now it’s working perfect.
Here’s the thing… everyday won’t be perfect, it won’t always go as planned, life is a mystery and that’s part of the adventure. As much as things feel Uber sticky and heavy and gross right now… keep shining the light, feel the feelings, feel to heal.
Stopping, is SO beneficial on many levels. To lean in and have some compassion.