I would be lying if I said life has been easy, but at the same time looking back I hold so much gratitude.
What has become very apparent is that healing holds so much power. Even for heartache from many years ago.
The other night during our son’s body talk session, Joanne mentioned that “dads mom has had a strong presence throughout”, while talking about big emotions after dad’s accident. My son and I looked at each other, she knew instantly, dad’s mom passed, 2 months before our wedding.
It was reassuring, but also heavy emotions hearing that she is and always has been a strong presence within our life and our kids. We feel it, I felt it not long after she passed even. A few surreal experiences at our first home, this is when I know my belief’s began shifting about spirits.
The one day while vacuuming in the kitchen, I very clearly heard my mothers in laws voice call my name. So much so that I turned the vacuum off and then a few minutes later felt a gush of wind as if someone had just went quickly past me. The other experience I remember clearly, is we had those phones where just 1 had to be plugged into the phone line and the others connected and could be put anywhere. One day, ONE phone was ringing. The phone upstairs in our bedroom.
With our daughter, Joanne picked up on trapped emotions surrounding the loss of our family cat in January 2020. She picked up that our Pais health wasn’t great but that there was another reason… not even 2 weeks after she passed, we found our rescue kitty Missy who looks almost identical to the kitty I grew up with, just a bit younger than our daughter. She has been such a beautiful support for our daughter during the past two years, especially with the loss of Paisley but also how upside down the world went in March 2020.
I am so grateful for Joanne and that I reached out to her to help find some trapped emotions within our kids. The past 18 months has been hard – very hard at times. I know the triggers will become softer over time, so for now I must be patient, lean in when I need to and honor the 4 of our feelings.
Trauma can affect people in so many different ways. The past two years has compounded, quadruple in fact to healing that perhaps was pushed down or ignored previously.
Healing power… very real, very intense, very needed.
Leaning in with what I know and am grateful for!