Its interesting some days how certain life experiences can change us and shift our lives. Also how these can also plague us at times. Reminders of work that still needs to be done.
Its also interesting how various things can quite literally be a trigger, even though said or done with the best intentions.
Seeing people in a different light, how time is spent or was spent. Priorities in life, priorities with people and experiences taking up space in our life.
I seem to be reminded at least once or twice a week, sometimes more, just how much we have shifted since my husbands accident. Our lives will never be the same. Which is ok, but also involves shifting at times. Especially with emotions.
I am reminded when I feel that tug on my right shoulder and collar bone.
Its not just for me, its not just my feelings I am feeling, I am picking up on my children. The unknowns and uncertainty we all felt. The not being “allowed” to see my husband and their father. Feeling disconnect and worry. Healing when I still feel so much anger from when I was literally sitting in the hospital hallway balling my eyes out and being told I couldn’t see him because of the “rules” and it wasn’t safe. Or having to stand up taller and stronger than I ever have had to, against the “healthcare system” and standing for our rights (after a significant misdiagnosis and prescribing drugs). Intimidation in “health care” is disgusting.
As I was preparing for the body talk energy sessions I booked for our kids, I was literally filling with all of this. Filling with mixed emotions of the past 18 months within the past 2 years.
Truthfully, my husbands accident was life changing in so many ways.
It also gave ME the permission I didn’t realize I was waiting for, to actually stand the fuck up to what I know to my core is right. NO ONE should ever have to sit alone after a traumatic accident. NO ONE should ever be ignored and gaslighted when it comes to their health. This happened and even after making a complaint, it wasn’t taken serious and we had to follow up more than once.
Its time that people stand up for what they know is right – to their core. NOT what the government says, NOT what the doctor says, NOT what your parent, sibling, stranger says.
True healing doesn’t come from a pill – thats what the government thinks happens and yes Ive been told I need to see both sides, the duality. Its so much deeper than that. Gaslighting is sadly very real and since 2020 has become the norm in our “sick care” system – hospitals are not health care – they care for the sick and their way of caring for them is with drugs. If you try to ask or request anything holistic you are 100% on your own. That is the sad reality.
Its up to us.
Its up to us to design the way we want to be living and LIVE.
I pay out of pocket WAY more for our holistic health care, than we have ever used for our benefits with big pharma or what the government deems as “health care”. I now know to my core, this IS the only way. I cannot expect the government to shift into this way of living because truthfully it cuts off their income with big pharma. Its a vicious disgusting circle that I am so grateful we have for about 95% of our life have exited.
Always listen to your gut and heart. Always honor how you feel.
Healing takes time… a fuck of a lot of time it can feel like.
Its time… for true family healing!