Doing the work will be different for every single person. What triggers me will most likely not trigger you.
This past weekend I was triggered in a very big way. I think because of the fact that it was also not directly at me, that it triggered me even more. Truly details do not matter, what does is I took someone for their word, their truth and found out they lied to me, through a loved one.
It hurt me for a couple reasons… 1. Because I believed their word and 2. My time (energy etc) is important to me.
So when I am lied to, literally for no reason, through a loved one that has zero to do with it originally AND my time is wasted (on 3 separate times), my new boundaries say a great big fat hell no!
However being the empath that I am… it fucking hurts!
The past two years has really been an eye opener in a lot of ways. I have developed an incredible compassion and patience level, because I have realized the strength of living my truth. The strength of being authentically me. The strength of being a true woman who can stand behind her word, unlike, the person who clearly needs a lot of blessings sent their way when they lied.
Am I perfect myself? Well let’s be honest, the word perfect is what YOU decipher it to be for YOU! Just like I decide what my perfect is. I have grown a lot in my life, I have realized the utmost importance of living an aligned life and have committed to a life of growth, however that develops for me.
What I do know, is that when I do the work, when I actually LISTEN to my intuition, life flows beautifully.
Truthfully, after speaking with this person the 2nd time, my intuition very strongly told me, exactly what went down. My ego tried to push that aside by saying no, no, you believe their word. No, you 100% always believe YOUR truth… but here’s the thing… it’s just not what you want it to be. That is still the ego. One can set intentions, but that doesn’t mean it will 100% come true. Doing this work, takes time, my goodness it still takes me time to connect, but it gets way easier!
A part of me hates to admit that I took a 24 hour hit to my energy, in a very negative way. Partially because I took it personal. When someone tells you one thing and then does the complete opposite it’s easy to feel this way.
My shower is like a magic portal. Seriously, I can get in there under the water and the downloads are incredible. The clarity, strength, love, support that flows through us priceless!
Why did this hit me, because I’ve adjusted my own limits of what I will and will not accept. To one person saying a “simple” lie may roll off their tongue with no hesitation. To another, who is divinely connected, this is literally going against your truth, your heart, your soul.
As I write and share, I feel the loosening in my heart chakra. Breathing deeper. See here is the thing, we cannot “help” everyone, in whatever capacity that may be. The best thing I can do is be the best person I can be. To release any expectations from anyone else – especially people who do not have a daily presence in my life – and to choose truth always.
Here’s the thing… you tell one lie and you will always be catching up to lie after lie. How could you possibly know your own truth? You can’t, I know this because I silenced myself for years.
When you do the work, you can then shift through easier, much easier actually, and come out feeling even better than before! Here’s the thing, when things are going REALLY good for you, the Ego likes to step in and challenge us. The ego is good at this. How bad do you really, really want ….. whatever. And that could be loving the fact that everything is in a beautiful positive flow, which it truly had been, until that afternoon.
Why a 24 hr shift… well the universe was challenging us with the power being out for many hours, my best shifting happens in the shower. Especially when I can stand with the water running down over my head and down my body. Literally washing the energy of the day off. The power abruptly came on at 136am at our house when the bedroom was filled with light. One downfall to three way switches to not know what lights were on when it went out. Actually 3 way switches are not great fun for anyone with even a touch of OCD, however that’s for another day. So I had a very interrupted sleep, meaning when wake up time came, it was challenging to get going. Not to mention then also wondering if the kids would actually have school, shockingly they both did! My body also recovering from an IBS flare up Saturday night… ahhh garlic!!! I’m grateful I literally was conscious throughout it all and used my tools, my oils, supplements etc and was able to get myself back on track in less than 48 hrs.
Growth will not happen over night, but it will be the best thing you could ever do for yourself!!!