It’s interesting sometimes in life how it unfolds. As I walked into our bedroom this morning, towards the big picture window with a view of the green space of our back yard I said out loud, ‘I just love our bedroom space so much’. My husband was barely awake and he mentioned the last 17 months and how he wouldn’t have survived in our old bedroom (with using the knee scooter) as it was very tight and alot of angles.
We were reminded, back in mid summer of 2019, receiving our building permit, after we had requested a 2020 permit and spring start date. We were given 6 months to start or loose the permit deposit 😑! We were stressed and feeling the pressure.
Our foundations went in, I believe in Aug/Sept and the framing was started in December.
March 2020 it felt like the world came to a halt. Confusion, uncertainty, worry, frustration on so many levels. We were living in not just the uncertainty of the world and our health, being told to fear other people. It was the biggest, what felt like, psychological attack ever.
The Everyday life prior to things stopping mid March 2020 (pretty much exactly to the date 2 yrs ago)… life was busy, very busy. Both kids in sports, school, working, household, some sanity for myself, it was alot at times. The only benefit to 2 years of “covid” is life for everyone took a giant step back.
It made complete sense suddenly, why our building permit was issued when it was. Our project was well underway when covid started. However with our project well underway, we also had a significant addition to our mortgage to pay for the additions, and were now in a time that we didn’t know what the fuck was going to happen. People were literally being told to stay home, fear, so much fucking fear. My nervous system was seriously damaged on so many levels.
It is SO important for people to be doing the work right now. To dig deep into yourself, even prior to March 2020, what did you push down and what do you need to release (this will take time). With so much uncertainty that we were living with, I then had the pressure on me of kids at home now, government propaganda which seemed to change daily and weekly of what and who to fear, would we be allowed to keep working as well? Will people want people in their house to do work?
Seriously, psychologically this has been so damaging to everyone’s mental health. I’ve been a mental health advocate for years, for myself and also loved ones. There is nothing to be ashamed of for asking for help, especially with what we have all been through on so many levels. This is where “our government” has failed us, seriously.
I am grateful I am able to invest in me. Probably helped that we couldn’t go anywhere the past 2 years, so I have literally used money from our savings to support my and our mental health. This has been a back bone of my “fight”. So many things do not add up, real science comes out and it’s ignored, the government pushes the companies producing the products (with complete immunity) to tell the people the 4th is now needed. There comes a point where MY body, MY health is so much more fucking important than them cashing in again. The past 2 years attempted to ruin my mental health, I am grateful I was awakened enough to see it and ask for help, vs just literally falling into line.
I know people whose health has been ruined in the past year as well. The “health care system” is not built on health, it’s built on sickness and is supported by you being sick. True health and wellness is rarely if ever promoted by doctors or especially by the government.
We have been living in a space where literally the government, which is a very small group of people, make decisions for the collective based on what they want, not the people. Yet so many are breaking free of this matrix. So many are seeing the truths, feeling the difference. Like I did with my health, or my husband with his.
The Healing that people need, truly need, is so far beyond what the government deems necessary with their sick care. The Healing we need is on an energetic and spiritual level.
We have continued to be reminded of this. On a spiritual level, raising up our frequency, looking at our shadows, being in a position where you literally have to say, ok, I will trust what is unfolding to work out for my highest good.
But then, do the work!
Looking back on my life, I can see where the challenges presented themselves and then the growth happened. It’s not straight and narrow though, it can be messy, it will hurt, it will be scary at times. Your heart will lead you. My heart has led me, it’s been so fucking scary at times. But, if I hadn’t walked through what I did, I wouldn’t be where I am today. So for that, I am grateful.
I am grateful that while planning our additions and then in the design phase, we also brought in the Feng Shui elements to our living space. Which then flowed out into our existing living space. A beautiful sense of peace, completion and anticipation.
Ironically, during this renovation journey of ours making this house a home, we have literally changed every single room, to meet the needs of our family. Many of the spaces we have lived in or through renovation. Challenging, however it’s also like a blank slate. As an artist, what can you do with a blank slate… create whatever your heart desires! Sometimes when you feel the pressure to do, this is when you may also experience alot of road blocks. When you are able to just be… watch it beautifully unfold, sometimes in ways you hadn’t even imagined as part of your designs or layout.
This mornings diffuser blend
- Serenity – the oil of Tranquility
- Wild Orange – the oil of Abundance
- Douglas Fir – the oil of Generational Wisdom