This morning I started my day, after journaling, in our home gym! Something I hadn’t done in a bit, due to pain, pain that I could not figure out but that had been plaguing me for so many months, May of 2021.
I didn’t over do it, it felt SO damn good. I was able to work my back, shoulders and arms with NO PAIN!
Truly grateful for my body talk session with Joanne ❤
I am not only gaining strength physically, I also am emotionally.
When you actively deal with the public every week day, it can feel draining at times – you never know what someone on the other end is experiencing or has experienced. Yesterday I experienced a phone call with a verbally abusive man. A call I had received for service, was provided only half the information so I had called him to verify his info vs the renal property. This information was refused to me, he then flipped and said “how about this, you are a dumb fucking bitch” and then repeated it about 3 times.
When you think of everything as an energy exchange, words can literally become like daggers to people. Words like this used to STING me very very hard, deep into my core. Sadly because many years ago this is how I was talked to by someone who claimed to “love me”. Its taken years of doing the work. Years.
As I was listening to a clip this morning, a fellow oil mama @Keeli.Nicole, she was sharing from her heart her experience with her own growth process and the importance of living in empowerment vs victim.
For years, I was living in a victim mindset, validating it because I was treated like shit for so long. This was done to me by… whoever.
I HOLD MY POWER.
I HOLD MY STRENGTH.
Living an empowered life, one thing I can truly say all of my personal development and inner work has contributed to. Rising up from the “norm” and creating our new norm within my own life as a woman, as a mother, as a wife, as a business woman.
What keeps coming up, is what you are being called to process and clear. The more we push emotions and feelings down or away, the less pain we are able to release. It literally becomes trapped in our bodies which is such a detriment to our overall health and wellbeing – physically and emotionally.
Generational healing is very real, many of us have been called to experience this practice which removes the stigma statement of “it runs in the family”.
IT ENDS WITH ME!
Choosing to step in to do the work, is choosing to heal – for yourself most importantly but also for your past and future generations.
You wont find healing with watching what everyone else is doing, you will find true healing by going deep. Looking at your triggers and how they feel IN your body. What emotions are attached and when that experience took place. Freeing the trapped emotions, is freeing mentally and physically.
I pulled cards yesterday for the full moon. In SUCH alignment!
Past -> Ten Cups (reversed)
Inability to experience joy. Dissatisfaction, through uncertain why – everything looks perfect on the surface.
Present -> Princess Cups (reversed)
The need to be be more receptive to beauty and love. Overindulging in imaginative fantasies.
Future -> Nine Pentacles
In an enchanted garden with perfumed flowers and singing birds the woman enjoys all of the luxuries and pleasures she has worked so hard to create.
Pleasure or sensuality. Fertility and luxury. Material prosperity.
I am truly so proud of “the work” I have been doing. It has been and continues to be transformational.
Last night’s and this morning’s diffuser blend. Bergamot – the oil of Self Acceptance, Breathe – the oil of Breath, Elevation – the oil of Joy, and Frankincense – the oil of Truth!
Updated… not long after publishing this blog, I made smoothies for my husband and I. As we tasted them, I said ‘this reminds me of last summer…’ which we both then had a flash back of last summer.
IMPROMPTU YOU TUBE VIDEO I felt drawn to share, more into my story of how releasing emotional scars can lead to physical healing.
This was actually the same face I had after I pressed stop and saw the recording length! Divine alignment is truly beautiful!