Going with the flow and listening, trusting my intuition is a very cool feeling.
The snow storm this weekend was another reminder that we are still in a time of hibernation, to be 100% cozy inside – our home and ourselves. Ive totally felt the desire to get going on spring cleaning, especially in the garage and lower level. This snow however, its inside time. Inside our home and my heart.
Truthfully, many mixed emotions this weekend! Now that we are “allowed” in a sports complex we did something that we had done for so many years, prior to 2020. Honestly, our daughter was a babe and napping on the freezer at the game because we helped out at every single one. I’m truthfully flabbergasted that healthy people were literally not allowed in certain places because they did not choose to take a drug that was just invented. I’m glad we could experience a game with the kids, like we did, literally 2 years ago, however I won’t lie it stirred up emotions. Masks still had to be worn, yet in a week on the 21st the science changes and masks are removed. None of this makes sense, none of this is logical in anyway with any reasoning. We went into the blue room room have a drink, masks off in there because people are drinking, then you walk out and you are supposed to put the mask on, no! I couldn’t do it. It’s just such non-sense. I then felt much more comfortable as ME in my alignment and truth. However… it’s also very scary to know that for a long time, 6 months, people had NO issue having to take a drug with zero long term testing just to be able to keep up with their social status, sadly that was many people, we know many who did so they could still go out. However, both my husband and I have had profound health and body challenges, we have literally been forced to BE with our physical and mental health challenges – zero excuses. We either got stronger or sank. We didn’t have to think long about ensuring our choice was for the best for us and our kids.
Not only that but being out and various people and energies, I’ve reaffirmed how crucial the Healing requirement is for the previous generation. A generation where feeling wasn’t encouraged for them, just dry your eyes and move on. So much wasn’t talked about, it was just swept under the rug. Ever since I have found out about my own health challenges, I am very transparent about how the current “norm” is not benefiting us in anyway. Our generation, our kids generation are a beautiful example of showing the importance of feeling, to heal. Especially if grief is involved. Our kids have been my best teacher!
So I’ve leaned in this weekend. I was feeling some frustration, anger, the push pull of this is not right and makes no sense at all. My soul has really struggled with this, all beyond my control – to a certain extent – so what is within my control, ME!
Enjoyed time out with the kids and some of their friends, with my husband, seeing people we used to see all the time, literally 2 years ago, um almost exactly eh… weird… Then had a LOT of home and down time. Productive time as well as totally surrendering and leaning right in, to do “nothing” – which I think we need to drop that, because I was purposely laying in bed, watching Y&R episodes from the week with my journal and a pen in hand, for whenever something popped up!
We leaned in and enjoyed a great home cooked meal for dinner, tidied up and ready to relax. Diffusers were even filled at 6pm, nice and early for total enjoyment. Coriander kept coming up for me today, one I can say I have not touched in a while… INTEGRITY!
in·teg·ri·ty noun: integrity
- 1. the quality of being honest and having strong moral principles; moral uprightness.”he is known to be a man of integrity” h Similar:honesty, uprightness, probity, rectitude, honor, honorableness, upstandingness, good character, principle(s), ethics, morals, righteousness, morality, nobility, high-mindedness, right-mindedness, noble-mindedness, virtue, decency, fairness, scrupulousness, sincerity, truthfulness, trustworthiness Opposite: dishonesty
2. the state of being whole and undivided. “upholding territorial integrity and national sovereignty”. Similar: unity, unification, wholeness, coherence, cohesion, undividedness
I am so grateful for the emotional uses of these oils, as I intuitively select the blends, they unfold to be exactly what I or we need.