Many years ago I would hear about using your intuition or following your heart. I would always question that, simply because I was hurt so many times. How could I trust my heart, when it was broken repeatedly and felt led astray.
I then began learning the importance of getting quiet and going within. Something I stumbled upon after high school. When I truly began to step into a higher part of me.
It’s also the time that I reached out and found counselling. Without a soul knowing. Even my husband, who was my boyfriend at the time. I strategically planned my appointments, found a therapist that ironically was very close to where he lived. I was ashamed to admit I had “allowed” myself to be abused for so many years and was hurting. We were having so much fun together, he knew about some of my past hurts and “baggage”, but I certainly didn’t want him to think I was “crazy”.
It’s sad that that was my fear… because when I finally did open up and told him about my appointments he was very supportive and understanding, but most of all loved me. All of me!
Mental health is a key aspect of our life. It’s one that truly does help us feel calm, grounded, content and at peace vs feeling like in fear, scared, controlled, verbally and emotionally abused.
Yesterday was heavy feeling for me. So I allowed myself to FEEL it. I allowed myself patience, grace and ease. I’ve done a lot of personal growth both emotionally and physically. There is something about being told “you have to stay home except for essential reasons such as…”.
Its everyone’s right to get what they need. Reiki, Reflexology, Manicures, Pedicures, a Hair Cut! Ontario is in a 3rd “Lockdown”, that in itself is slightly triggering for me, however I will save that for another day. What I am thankful for is allowing myself patience, which also included going within yesterday and today, energetically. Giving myself permission to just BE, whatever that may look like ❤