What If Its Too Late?

Could go a lot of different directions huh… I’m one who is continually working at getting away from thinking of the “what if’s”. Being conscious IN THE moment, vs thinking of what if this or that. In true alignment when I am being vs thinking of doing.

This post is more of a wake up call… If you choose to see it that way.

I resisted my health for a lot of years. I lost a piece of myself in teens, which led to neglecting my own self care and at one point, stopped listening to my true soul.

The journey isn’t always smooth or straight, challenges help us grow, really they do, honestly 😐. But seriously as hard and trying challenges can be and feel like, they really do help us learn and grow! 🙏

I can distinctly remember journaling to myself, about 6-8 months before my husband and I met that I wanted to meet a man who loved and respected me, and who also got along well with my family. This is my first memory of truly manifesting in my life. As we met at a completely unexpected opportunity 🥰.

At a time when I was confused and very hurt, I knew how I wanted my life to shift and began steering in that direction.

When we were challenged with infertility, how much did we truly want to grow our own family, I prayed with my heart for a healthy baby. I also spoke the truth that I didn’t think I could endure that pain again, and were blessed with our perfectly timed, surprise baby who completed our family.

When my kids were young I was naive, I was ignorant, I knew from our infertility journey that my health was headed down a path that would one day need saving. I purposely ignored my body’s cues, over and over. Yet complained freely, and honestly too much about how I felt like shit or couldn’t sleep, didn’t feel well, etc etc.

Our health is truly ours, not one person can ever take that from us. Much like our education, whether its life lessons or school curriculum based. I’ve been told that was a saying by my Granpa Hap. “The one thing no one could ever take from you, is your education.” Truth! 🙌

I had numerous people comment to me AFTER I lost over 60lbs that they thought I looked health at my before weight. I appreciate the comment, however every time my response has been… I WASN’T!

But, it wasnt just “loosing weight”, yes that happened and I am grateful for it. That was not my main focus at all.

I began educating myself on the ingredients in our various products, the ways we handled health care in our home, what I was eating and drinking, what goes on and in our body. It was shocking for me.

A journey that one has to experience to have a full understanding. It involves truly committing to ME. Committing to me and then immediately after, my family. It involved me being vulnerable, stretching my mind, taking baby steps, pausing when needed, using my voice/buying power, to commit to always learning!

How I feel now, in my 40th year (a-hem…) I would love to sit down with my 20 year old self. Oh my goodness no, actually my 15 year old self. I am in the best health I ever have been AND that’s even after an IBS flare up over the holidays! I have learned, when I listen to my body, life flows so much more magically. Physical and mental health! Of course with the 80/20 or at times 90/10 “suggestion”.

If I hadn’t began shifting my life over 6 years ago, my life would not be where it is today. If my life wasn’t where it is today, meaning I did not integrate positive changes, my health would have been in significant jeopardy.

It’s a daily work in progress, continually learning, circling back with gratitude and learning what it really means to feel good!