I’ve been feeling a bit more on edge lately. With school recently announced that its over for this school year, I am feeling grateful, but also very conscious of what that means for our kids in a totally different way.
I have read of the new CDC Guidelines for re-opening a school and it makes me feel sick. Our innocent children who should be laughing, playing, having fun while also learning are suddenly going to return to a stark cold atmosphere with very little human interaction.
This upsets me a great deal. Adds come confusion to my life. I know how I feel about this, so how do we make this work if needed? Not what I need to have figured out right now, but to be conscious and clear on my beliefs and opinion.
This is teaching us to find our true inner voice. To dive deep and find out what being authentic really means.
This week we also rescued a couple baby Robin’s from our soffit area of our house. I moved the nest down 2 feet and suddenly became a robin mama! Not something I was planning on, but something that did upset me. As soon as I saw the mama Robin on the nest one late morning I knew… she had babies! Those Robin’s build nests quick, they also abandon them quick too! For the past few days we cared for these Robin’s. All the while looking for a wildlife rehabilitation center for them to go. We put them in their nest completely intact, into a shoe box with a light. It was some very nerve wracking days for me, it however ended with some amazing people coming together for the sake of this innocent bird. Today at lunch one baby robin went to the rehab center and has responded well. Unfortunately we lost one baby Robin, this morning. I felt relief that at least we saved one. I am also exhausted. I barely slept last night because I knew they weren’t doing well.
When I came home after work I knew I needed a little me time. So I grabbed my camera and went out into the yard. It was so quiet, peaceful. I listened to the buzzing of the bees, the birds chirping and singing.
I was purposeful with my time and focusing on taking “the” shot. I set up my shots with much more precision, shooting in manual allows more freedom. A slower pace, enjoying the moment, the art of my subject that I am taking a photo of.
Another reminder that it’s ok to take a step back.
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We had taken chicken out of the freezer for dinner. It stayed in the fridge longer than what it needed and was still a bit frozen. I could have completely set aside my desire to go outside and enjoy some me time with my camera to cook dinner and clean the kitchen… or I could lean in, surrender and admit it’s ok to not do it all! We ordered pizza! I sat down for 30 minutes with my camera card and computer and processed the images, admiring each image I so carefully crafted in the camera, brought to life even more through Lightroom. We will make a chicken dinner tomorrow night together!
I came home to our kids laughing, the best sound honestly! I was also quickly instructed to not go downstairs. For the entirety of our Covid-19 experience our son has been out of his room as we have progressed forward with the additions. Tonight he took the initiative to rearrange the space back into a loving room and moved his bed to a space that works best for he and his sister or us as a family to enjoy the basement together! It was an amazing surprise!
I truly appreciate the kids for the initiative they take, even during frustrating times that have felt lonely, I am thankful they have each other, us and their friends they have kept in touch with! It’s not a fun “current reality”.
This is what I used to do for me time, when I felt overwhelmed and needed to pull back from life… it’s too easy now to mindlessly scroll social media… another great reminder to follow people who inspire you and are authentic in their own life. This is something that has become strongly clear to me. Honor your own ethics and values!
It’s to convenient to view other people lives and think we are insuperior in some way than they are. Or reading the words of others. We are all entitled to our opinions. That doesn’t mean we have permission to be rude or inconsiderate. This time in our life especially, it’s important to be allowed to speak your mind and also respect that of others.
It feels even better to take a step back into the big picture of our own life. How incredible it really is. Our surroundings and the things in our home.
My life really is an art. It flows, sometimes better than others. All in Divine Timing! 💕