Like A Lasagna

Its been a dark, dreary day today with little pockets of sunshine with blue skies. The perfect dinner planned… Lasagna! A dish I was once intimidated by, now quite enjoy the process and the meal!

Life lately has been like a lasagna. Actually, following a recipe to make a lasagna as well.

After making it a few times now, I know the ingredients and found a few ways to tweak it just a little bit, kinda a personal twist to make it mine.

Enjoying the silence of the kitchen, hearing the laughter from my kids playing together down stairs (and that was after they did some organizing and decluttering together with my encouragement!) and hearing my husband in the house garage. A beautiful sense of “normalcy” in our nest. I think of how blessed we have been to have the time to get done what we need to, for our contractors timing lining up perfectly.

I am then brought back to reality of the actual life we are living and how relevant it is to me following the lasagna recipe.

There may be guidelines of life, laws to follow, which are all within reason, an understanding. But then there are some that just make you go hmmmm???

We are all entitled to live our life our way, as long as we follow the “rules”. As well as a lasagna it can be made in so many different ways and life in general has many layers. We interpret life how we choose to and with what feels right. Our bodies are unique, our interests, tastes, knowledge, experience, etc.

We take the recipe and make it our own.

Every single one of us is living a “new” life right now. One that is not allowing us freedom to choose. Many are living in fear. Isolating and mental health sinking. Pharmaceutical use on the rise. Sadly, understandable! Confusion of what’s going on, the unknown, uncertainty.

Life truly is like a lasagna, with many layers, sometimes really messy, but also so very good. The more you accept the messy parts of your life and shine light on them, the happier and healthier you can become, speaking from my own experience.

Living a life in alignment, with your truths, ethics and values. Living and working/earning an honest living with mustal respect.

If you know me, you know that as much as I am a very strong introvert, who is an independent thinker. I have had moments in my life of complete deceit, lies, verbal and emotional abuse, control but that is not me. I’ve lost friends for standing up for myself and questioned my own worth. I used to think the hurtful/negative things were a big part of me, but in truth there were reflections of others. I have learned to believe in myself, to listen to myself and when I am not sure, when it doesn’t feel right yet, I find the answer.

My health is a beautiful example, meeting my husband, the best, each of our children and my journey before and with them.

This current world we are living in, although has been devastating to our economy, has given us a unique opportunity to REALLY dive down deep within to our core. To slow down life and actually hear what we have been whispering to ourselves. A few months ago I wrote about wanting to blog more, to step back from social media as much. I have heard this little whisper anytime I would scroll social media. I could also feel the anxiety rise while I scrolled. Also why I purposely unfollowed a lot of news outlets and why we purposely stopped watching the news at home years ago. Then I read this today. How these big tech companies, simpler to refer to them as that, have been encouraged to strongly filter information online. Let me dumb that down, giving them complete control over what we are allowed to voice as our opinion. Yes could be a grey area, lots of crazy talk in general out there. Yup there is, there always has been. So why now? You could look up some crazy controversial shit and now with C0vid-I9 we are suddenly being muzzled?! Why?

I have felt for a while that something is off, something does not feel right. This feels like a movie… Have you watched Contagion? I think that’s what its called. Honestly I enjoy movies, shows, music etc., I focus on the plot or song/sound, not who is in it .

Life is like a lasagna, multiple layers, a little messy, not the same for everyone, but we all have a choice of what piece and how we will enjoy it, even how we build it!

You have a choice. You have the time. Regardless if you are working or not. We are working, home schooling, renovating with two new additions and yes I have found time to learn more. The more I learn, the more sure I become in myself. Listening to myself. Trusting my self.

Do not just take my word or anyone else’s, you will see the more you look and trust me its eye opening, disturbing but so freaking believable. Believable because I have experienced physical and emotional control, which is also just as common of women doing this to men as well.

There is a very strong pull in me in living an authentic life, speaking an authentic voice and doing so because I feel confident. No one should tell anyone what to think or believe, mustal respect in understanding this. In valuing your own life and choices enough to respect others. Choosing to be informed, credibly, and if needed admitting that your preious belief just may have been skewed without you even realizing it.

Use this time to get quiet with yourself. Listen and feel. How do you feel? This matters. When you live authentically you feel different. When you are in alignment you thrive, emotionally, physically, financially, health.

How are you living authentically?

Are you living in truth? What is the truth? Will you take the steps to see? Or just follow along with what you are told?

Side note… if you choose to do the research, educate yourself and be strong in your beliefs while respecting others! If it’s being completely authentic… That’s exactly what should be happening! Life is not and never was meant to be a competition. Being authentic means a journey enjoying the good and any bumps in the road! Living a real life 💕