Out In The World

The story we tell ourselves with everything we do, is absolutely key to our mental well-being.

To feel serene, content, confident, secure, safe, comfortable, satisfied, abundant, loved.

Interestingly, this is how comfortable I feel and relaxed when home. The story of out in the “world” in our current living situation, it can push fear, sadness and uncertainty. I did not leave my house from the time I got home Thursday until leaving for work on Tuesday. It was glorious! We watched minimal news. Enough to be informed.

I did groceries during my lunch, we have been much more purposeful at what we are planning for meals and minimizing food waste, a plus for this for sure. So this was big for me, we had our meals planned out and I did not have to have that visual reminder.

As much as I do feel comfortable and safe at work, we still have to screen our customers. For our employee’s and their family’s safety but also for the customer. So with every customer I speak with I must ask them questions, which reminds me very vividly the situation we are living in. I hear kids in the background and I am reminded that my children are also home, which is comforting given the current world situation, however is another very strong reminder of what we are its like out in the world.

The past couple days have been much more challenging for me. I honestly feel the weather plays a big part, a blanket of snow both Monday and Tuesday night. Cold, dark and dreary. Chocolate and some other (gluten free) baked goods over Easter.

I read a news article this morning about how a grocery store in Toronto was mistakenly left open on Easter Sunday, when it was supposed to be closed. The article has comments in it from people who went in and knew something was wrong, some people had got some groceries and were writing it all down. Someone called the police to ensure it wasn’t left open unattended. This is was a beautiful reminder of being Canadian! Honestly I am enjoying the “break” from people – I said it. Its not a bad thing. I am very much an introvert and I love being in my home. I do obviously socialize, however typically by the end of winter and summer, I am ready for a little slow down in between those seasons. My time to refresh and renew.

This situation, which yes is warranted to ensure the health and safety of all, really can play with your mind. Especially when mother nature doesn’t want to cooperate either.

I had a wonderful weekend at home, long weekend off Friday and Monday. With a few calls each day of the weekend. It’s easier to shift after making those questions only a couple times a day versus numerous times a day!

The darker days tugged gently on me, trying to keep pulling me down. At lunch today I was hit with a wave of exhaustion. It’s been mentally exhausting at times. All I wanted to do was come home and go lay in bed, but I wouldn’t let myself. It helps when you commit to a friend.

I committed to my friend’s BUTI class she was teaching over zoom as a gift for everyone to help refocus, unwind and build strength! It’s been over 9 months since I had the pleasure of one being in class! It was SO good! EXACTLY what I needed!

I had a quick snack after work with lots of water… reminder to drink more water! We are supporting #takeoutday to order take out on Wednesday’s to support our local restaurants!

It’s all about balance…

Sometimes it’s what I think I don’t have time for, is exactly what I DO have time for when I slow my brain down, refocus and put my own needs first. This is a weird time for us all. No matter the age. Its helped me re-ignite my motivation within our house, within myself. And… it’s ok to enjoy downtime. It may feel scary out in the world at times, what truly matters is how you feel inside. Honor those feelings. 💕🙏