Without a doubt, we, as a collective in the world, will get through this current situation.
A situation that, let’s be completely real, has never happened in our lifetime, perhaps not even our parents. Many of our grandparents were around during the war, albeit very different. I wont sugar coat it, this totally has my attention.
It’s not just me. It’s my kids, my family, which includes many elderly relatives, friends and of course our co-workers.
Our family business provides essential service for plumbing and heating. Yes some can be put off, re-scheduled if needed, others are true emergencies when it comes to heat and water.
Yesterday we made the choice to lock the doors. We are still cautiously operating our business to provide these essential services, however are reducing our interaction with people coming into our office.
For me this felt scary, scary to finally make that decision, worry that we were making the right decision and that we need to first and foremost put the safety of our employees and all the families attached to them as priority.
Earlier this week I had to tell someone we couldn’t come help them with their water issue, because people in that household had just returned from Cuba. This admittedly was tough for me, we obviously want to help when we can, but we have to put our employees wellbeing first.
As a mother I have to be very conscious of what my children could be exposed to.
It’s the unknown, the uncertainty that quite honestly has taken the most toll on me emotionally. We continue to do our daily norm of supporting our bodies and home, because that is our norm. I’ve honestly been reaching for my oils alot more recently, for emotional support. One of the main reasons I began using them.
This morning I woke shortly after 5 am. Something I’ve been striving for and my body has been learning to do naturally. However I’ve noticed I have been allowing my emotions and therefore my body, to be almost paralyzed in fear. I may have been up early, but the “what if’s” and worry circle through my head, until I finally get up and rush out.
That’s NOT a good feeling. At all, for me or anyone.
All the while we are also trying to make decisions for our last major renovation piece to our home. Decisions have to be made that I’m having a very hard time making. I need to take a drive, not only to look at other homes for some inspiration, but also to clear my head a little bit.
The uncertainty, while in the midst of some major renos, with a mortgage on our dream home, thankfully realistic, is slightly, no why sugar coat it, it’s been stressing me out. In a very big way.
But then I read something shared in our local FB group, a group where I had begun distancing myself because of the negativity. Last night someone posted about positives coming out of this pandemic. People are healing. Social distancing is not a bad thing. It can help you pour more into you, your home and most important your kids.
But we all have to do our part. We will get through this. I’ve seen so many posts about how cleansing this will be, a reset on life for so many people. Obviously I know the seriousness of this illness for so many people and my heart goes out to them.
As I rose early, I laid in bed and felt I needed to rinse in the shower. I find the shower, water washing over me, so cleansing. Before I got back in bed, my husband suggested I grab an oil to help calm me. He could feel how anxious I was feeling. Thankfully I keep a bottle of Balance in our room and within minutes was feeling a sense of calm and feeling grounded.
We can do this, working together, with compassion, understanding and patience.