I had to go to the grocery store to stock up on things we legit needed. The energy in the grocery store was honestly just gross.
I went in knowing what I needed, with a list, my buckets and my freezer bag, feeling calm and confident, but also cautious.
I left feeling so heavy, drained and exhausted.
I am grateful because I did not run into one negative person, everyone was polite which was so nice to see!
It was the energy of panic, worry, rushing… fear! All feelings that completely bring me down.
I literally stopped myself a few times in the grocery store to reground myself. Remind myself its OK. To be realistic of what we already have and what we did need. Thinking of others as well. Especially the elderly who may not have anyone to go out and help them stock up? Whose immune systems are more at risk that someone my age. This is a beautiful reminder to think of yourself first AND others!
I went in knowing what we needed, saw a few more things we needed and I had forgot, but then saw the various full, and some over flowing carts, the empty shelves, having to get way down to see if there was any more pasta sauce at the back, I could feel the panic begin to rise, was I buying enough, what if we need this or that, should I buy more pasta, oh I can’t because there isn’t any gluten free, but remembered we do still have some at home. Pasta sauce on aisle shelves that were almost completely bare, the toilet paper aisle… empty!
Which has me totally baffled… why toilet paper?! I had purposely been waiting for toilet paper to come on sale, I love the really big packs when they go on half price!
The cancellations, although understandable, honestly have blown my mind! When it was announced yesterday afternoon that schools will be closed for 2 weeks following March break, it really set in just how serious this is.
It hit me last night, maybe this is a massive step in truly slowing the world down. Forcing people into isolation, whether sick or not instantly slows the world, after the initial panic of course, whether we like or not. Yes it most definitely is going to affect the economy and every single business, in most likely a very big way.
However maybe, just maybe this could be a slight pull back and once we are through this, which hopefully won’t end up being as long as it could have been without precautionary actions, to then exponential growth for all. Growth financially and in time.
Literally cancelling everything, forces people (it should anyway) to stay in their own homes. I can think of so much I could do at home, that I maybe kept telling myself I “didn’t have time for…”. Even simply more time with my husband and kids! To really get comfortable with ME! To encourage my kids to do the same.
So I am being optimistic and realistic about life. Open up to the slow down. Supporting my body just as I was before, but with a little bit more intention. Grateful for our local stores and not having to go to the city. Please remember to shop local, especially living in a small town, we need to support our own at this time 🙏💗.
Although I feel like there is alot of fear and panic in the world right now, I also feel confident in how we have been supporting our family for years! I checked in with our Dr’s office Wednesday, I realize the importance of our modern medicine. I explained how our son was doing, improving everyday, they said to continue doing what we have been doing, it was obviously working because he continued to get better. Living a healthier lifestyle has boosted our health and happiness.
Also, big shout out to our local butcher for having ground beef! It’s by far so much better tasting and is already environmentally conscious freezer ready!✌