This has been something I am growing to be more comfortable with.
Celebrate yourself. Your successes no matter how big or small!
The other night our son was playing with a soft measuring tape. Which reminded me I had wanted to update my measurements on this healthy journey I have been on!
As much as I know I am feeling better, my clothes needed to be replaced, I have been pushed along to be more and more comfortable in my body. I know I’ve lost more inches. I know how proud I am of myself. But I kept holding back doing it. As if I was expecting the numbers to have gone up, even though I knew, without checking, they hadn’t!
I’ve been let down in the past many times. Even though that has been many various years ago, it’s a default that I continually work on to push myself to be the best version of me! Anyone who has unfortunately experienced verbal and emotional abuse (which happens to BOTH women and men…) can understand the lasting effects and the more work it takes to build yourself back up from an abusive controlling person. Even many years later!
If you want growth… challenge yourself. If it feels slightly uncomfortable, obviously not a bad uncomfortable, you are on your way! Keep going! That previous voice in your head, the voices of others … push past them and do it for YOU!
So… I took the 5 minutes it takes to update my measurements and realize I’ve lost 54.75″ in 3 years! That’s almost the height of my daughter!!! Its up to my shoulders!
This is a total loss from measuring my neck, upper chest, chest, ribs, waist, hips, left and right thigh and left and right calves!
10″ alone from my waist… 2.5″ from my neck… MY NECK!?!?
Friday night I celebrated my accomplishment! I am SO proud of myself!!! Most of all, because I feel I did this in the healthiest way for my body.
Get comfortable with being uncomfortable. For me I was not comfortable with how I felt. Emotionally or physically. For years, well over 20 actually, I felt I was held prisoner to my body. I kept quiet because I didn’t like to direct attention or make it into a big deal. I am a true introvert to my core. As I gained control of my weight and began healing my body, I had to be comfortable with being uncomfortable. People began to notice I was loosing. I had to buy new clothes because the clothes I had were very very big on me. Which, was another hurdle to cross, spending money on myself on clothes.
I pushed myself to love my body. To embrace my body. To heal and balance energy in my body to release and move forward. To heal from the inside out. To be ok with change and embrace how amazing it is to feel good!
The past month has been one of the biggest shifts. I feel SO good! I am listening to my body and it’s simply not worth it to cut myself short, ever! Whether it be energy, food or the people I am around.
If you are reading this and thinking … damn I have been cutting myself short or even worse I have been verbally, emotionally mean or controlling to others… MAKE THE CHANGE! You do have the control – for yourself – to make a shift. Above all the absolute only person we “have control over” is ourselves, not our children, our partner, family, friends. Also unhappy and hurt people, continue to hurt people until they begin to heal. Happy people do not hurt people (emotionally or physically). Happy people promote peace and balance!
Celebrate yourself always, even if it feels like a baby step CELEBRATE IT! You may think it’s not a big step, but maybe it is, maybe it’s the step that got you to where you are today.
NO ONE is perfect! Yup you read that right, no one. I know some may need a moment to catch their breath 🤣! If you are noticing you maybe have work to do yourself, or you know someone in your life you have been unnecessarily mean to or have been excessively hard on them and their own mental health, shake it off, put your ego aside, be a real human being and be respectful. Then pick up a book and read it and begin to improve your own life and just watch what begins to happen… your hatred, anger, sadness will begin to fade just remember to allow the happiness in. Even better, be happy when others are happy! If your kids or spouse spend time with someone other than you and come home excited to tell you all they did, be happy for them! Just as you would be happy, or should be happy, for good things that happen to a family member or friend!
Celebrate all the amazing steps and achievements you make in your life. There were days my anxiety felt so bad I didn’t want to get out of bed… yup real affects of emotional abuse that I’ve spent alot of years healing inside. That I will break from my generational line, as my experiences I do not want energetically to follow my children. This is the reality of not dealing with your “shit” in your life and also not celebrating yourself!
I finally began to shift my weight and health when I began dealing with the internal “shit”! Honestly. The stuff buried down very deep, alot of pain, so much emotional pain from someone I once thought loved me. Looking back I know he also was in pain. He also needs to do alot of internal work to heal from his generational shit. I used to blame him for the way he treated me, for all the pain and how I felt emotionally so messed up. I can now say I forgive him and anyone else who has wronged me. I know he has so much healing himself to do and I, from a distance, encourage that healing. I also know he wasn’t the only one who hurt me. He made me weak, he made me vulnerable. He made me feel I wasn’t worthy. Friends I thought I could trust. Always follow your gut feeling. Alas, I am not perfect myself, so I know the way I have possibly treated others has provided them with a way of deeper healing in their life too. It’s a snowball effect on everyone in this world that really needs to begin healing in a much bigger way!
In November 2016 when I began taking my Reiki 1 course I had no idea how powerful this would be to begin healing energy trapped deep inside of me. To truly celebrate and love me, for who I am. This is one of the biggest reasons for my success.
The other night I celebrated! With good food (gluten free!), music, dancing, drinks… all in our kitchen!!! Celebrating ME and my achievements. I was SO excited and proud of myself. Not just for “loosing weight”, but for boosting me up internally. Recognizing and realizing my worth for my health to improve, internally I could thrive and be healthier and happier too! 💕
So stand up, be proud, let the haters keep hating, the gossipers keep gossiping and just be happy, be loving, be considerate and simply just BE YOU! ✌
Make Love Not War 🥰