It’s been a bit since I’ve written from my soul. I will admit I had something sh*tty happen to me that made me dig in a little deeper.
Photography for me is like an escape. I love capturing amazing shots of life, landscape and everything in between.
While shooting with my camera, my lens fell off. Literally fell off my camera. I was devastated. I promptly called Canon the next business day to find out that my lens is no longer serviceable. Once the shock wore off I cried big ugly alligator size tears. At work. Wasn’t fun. I actually kept repeating to myself, ‘what is this trying to teach me?’ Sometimes it’s not very clear, or what you want to realize.
My lens is beyond repair. Sucks. I’ve had it less than 10 years and its now a paper weight. Literally. I love my camera equipment and carefully selected each lens with a purpose.
I’ve sat on this for a bit. I struggled. Big time. Its not just the loss of the lens, its financially replacing it.
It has however pushed me to use a lens I haven’t used in a long time. To fall back in love with it and why it’s so amazing. Hmmm life lesson 1, appreciate everything you have.
I pushed myself to raise up. Raise up from what feels so much easier. Do what makes you feel good. For me one of that was getting shooting again! With that lens I haven’t used in a while. Write more, listen, learn. Be present, be loving, be there for others when needed, be the protector for your energy.
and… Wear the “nice clothes”!
Although today was a sad reason for dressing up, it raised me up even more. Wear the nice clothes, don’t wait for a “special” occasion or reason. Embrace life and all its twists and turns. Real life. By living authentically. True to my heart. Allowing myself to process the feelings and move forward. Like I said I was devastated. The past cannot be changed, the present is an incredible gift and the future is full of possibilities. Then capture it… real life just like my photo above. Real life for us is back in reno mode – but seeing the light at the end of the tunnel. So all mirrors in our home are currently reflecting our real life in this moment – which is OK because soon enough its going to get organized and cleaned into the space we have envisioned for a while!
Suck it up buttercup and let it go!
It was also a beauty of a reminder for me how when you feel good, you naturally carry yourself higher and happier. As I enjoyed some quiet time reading in my comfy’s, I remembered just how much I am truly grateful for. No time to dwell. I kicked my health in the ass and took control. I had an awesome “before and after” to appreciate. 1 year of determination, life shifts and love has continued to bless me with healthy success. Even years later!
So much to be happy for and proud of. Yes negative things happen, unfortunately they cannot be changed so we must choose to grow from the experience!
Rest in peace my 24-70 f2.8L
I’ve got my eye on the 24-105 f4L. It is a spectacularly sharp lens I had years ago and I have been missing…
Life lesson 2 – Honor your heart. I appreciate quality, I know the quality. I thought of looking at cheaper slower lens… However I know I would loose enjoyment to my photography. So I choose to invest in me and keep my passion alive! Be authentic. Loosing all that weight has helped me be more adventurous with the kids and my camera is a key factor in capturing our adventures and fun!!!