How I broke free from being a prisinor of my body! | PCOS + Hypothyroidism + Mental Health

Hearing the word “infertility” at 23 was heart breaking. I turned inward, felt completely alone and really began to resent my body.

I continuously asked myself WHY!?

Why me? Why us? Are we not deserving of a family? I am not going to be a mom?

I began to resent my health, my body, the people around me who ‘didn’t understand’, all those who were getting pregnant with no issues and even my husband.

I felt broken.

I didn’t truly grasp this *new* life I should have begun living until many years after we were blessed with two beautiful babies.

We were blessed with two children 17 ¾ months apart – our daughter was actually due exactly 18 months after our son was born and arrived a week early.

I struggled as a woman and new mom. I experienced depression, anxiety, overwhelm and my body was still very much out of control with very little medical help to “figure out” what was going on and why. I just wanted answers and no one could give them to me. My body even knew it was done after the doctors suggested pill after pill after pill and my body was DONE with it! It being synthetic medications trying to “trick my body”.

In 2011 I finally said ENOUGH!

Enough of the pain and discomfort I was experiencing on a daily basis. I opted for a hysterectomy and looking back was one of the best decisions I made. Although it did not take away my PCOS symptoms I was finally experiencing *some* relief.

In 2014 I finally said I AM WORTHY.

Worthy of living a healthy and happy life. Free from pain, depression, isolation, and free to be ME! I am worthy of INVESTING in myself of products that help my body vs harming and TIME for self care.

I have PCOS. I live a PCOS lifestyle. I also have Hypothyroidism, Endometriosis, IBS and I also live an ADHD lifestyle.

All medication free.

Medication and drugs, from my experience, are NOT the answer. I was diagnosed back in 2005 and still these articles that are being posted in 2018 – 13 years later – are that Doctors still know very little about PCOS. They knew even less back when I was diagnosed. Actually not many people did which led to me feeling even more alone and isolated. When I told them what I have I got blank stares, “are you sure”, “just work out more and eat less”, and the common from my doctors… “you are in the normal range”… Bullshit!

Its an invisible HORMONAL ILLNESS that affects a woman’s mind and body.

Based on *MY* personal experience, Ive been able to reverse my PCOS symptoms as well as my Hypothyroidism symptoms, IBS, endometriosis etc by making healthier changes in my life! Ive even rose above depression and massive anxiety.

I say this with complete respect to all women out there. I know how it feels. I know what infertility feels like. The weight gain, irritability, insomnia, worry. The pain, anger, feelings of being alone, broken, detached and the low places it can take you. Feeling misunderstood and even questioning if this is really real.

As much as I do support modern medicine… Ladies let me give you this food for thought… Its a HORMONAL illness. There are SO many endocrine disruptors in the products many of us use every single day. By simply making healthier choices in MY life – natural deodorant, shampoo, conditioner, body wash, soap, lotion, products we use for our mental and physical health, cleaners in our home, laundry detergent, air fresheners… many commercial products contain very harmful ingredients which contribute to our symptoms getting worse, our physical and mental health deteriorating.

Think of the most common foods in grocery store – pre-packaged, full of preservatives, dyes, various chemicals, “flavours”… The “cleaners” marketed to us to ensure we have a clean and fresh smelling home are filled with toxins damaging our mental and physical health.

Everything you put IN and ON your body affects it. ❤

Ladies… GET EXCITED TO TAKE CONTROL OF YOUR HEALTH!!! Truly invest time and energy into getting to know YOUR body and challenges. You WILL become stronger I promise you that!

A huge part of my success was believing in the choices I made. Allowing SELF CARE to be a priority in my life – above everything else! Self care before my children, husband, business, friends, life… Committing to ME. In October 2017 I joined some doTERRA sisters at an Elite Retreat. At this retreat we were literally ripped open. We cried, we hugged, we laughed, we ate good food! I left that retreat more committed to ME than I ever had been.

In 2018 I dedicated to SELF CARE!

In 2018 I committed to investing in me with a personal coach, expanding my mind with books, meditations, reiki energy work and journaling… but most of all trusting in this journey through life. A true shift in mindset from – why is this happening to me, to what is this meant to teach me and how can I grow from here. An ongoing conscious daily practice to be my best self, first for me, then for my kids and husband and the other pieces of our life. I do pushed myself to dig deep. To truly bring to the surface pain from many years ago that had been buried quite deep. Pain that was actually preventing me from being my best self. To truly forgive – for me – and move forward in my life. To live in truth and happiness. Regardless of outside influences.

Its all about BALANCE.

In my life I choose Balance.
I chose to “have my cake and eat it too”… on the odd occasion.
I eat real food every single day, even some of our fav’s like chips and dip – but much healthier and so yummy.
Ive chosen strengthening my body with Yoga and am adding in weights.
I enjoy my wine.
I value my downtime.
I love and appreciate water.

I knew if I put too many restrictions on me OR too many “to-do’s” I would set myself up for failure – instead Ive created my ideal life of living healthy for me and its worked beautifully as a working mama! And ladies let’s be real… its committing to YOU – each and every single day! As much as I used to hope there would just be a quick fix and I would be fine… its consciously being aware every single day. Being truly authentic to you.

Invest in TIME to EDUCATE yourself. Be proud to stand up for YOUR belief’s and simply BE YOU! If you don’t know who the real YOU is… its time for a deep dive!

What I’ve learned is my body was not punishing me, it was directing me into a healthier version of how I live at my absolute best – for my mind, body and soul.


A ME who I am so PROUD of!
Someone who knows her worth, value and is grateful for everyone and thing in my life. Who is more patient, empathetic and understanding – most of all to myself. Aligned with being truly authentic and surrounding myself with like minded people. And most of all understand that my body is not the enemy, my body is a blessing and the baby steps I took to get here was 1000% worth every second and dollar!

What is your morning routine? 🤔
I will admit it’s taken time to get myself into a morning routine that works for me… 16 days into the new year and it’s still going strong! 🙌
Self care is a HUGE part of my routine! So much so it’s pretty much automatic now!👊

✔ Wake up
✔ Drink water

✔ Meditation

✔ Morning journal
✔ A Course in Miracles daily morning reading
✔ Oils in the diffuser in our main living area
✔ Shower and get dressed
✔ Oils on me – whatever is calling to me in the moment
✔ Supplements for me and the kids
✔ Tidy up the kitchen after breakfast and lunches

I am SO excited to see where 2019 will take me on this journey!!! 🤗

If you are ready to take control – naturally – PM me.
There is a better way!

Published by The Mystic Healing Artist - Pamela Zmija

Pam is a nature and lifestyle photographer, biz woman, number cruncher, oil lover, healer and most important, a mom and wife. She is passionate about inspiring and empowering mom’s and their families to become the true architect of their life to learn real, simple and affordable ways of positive change in their lifestyle to be healthier and happier… naturally!  Creative and conscious about the value of a dollar, Pam is driven by feeling good!   #lifestylephotographer #doTERRA #EssentialOils #YourLifeAsArtEssentials  #PCOS #MentalHealth #ADHD #ouroilylife #thehealingartist #yourlifeasart #naturephotographer

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