Always Speak Up

As I was pulling dinner together tonight after getting week 2 of our cleanse supplements together I got thinking.

Hubby and I had a great few days away, granted alot of work talk, but still enjoyed being away together with no responsibilities. We got home, picked up the kids, we needed groceries, to make lunch and then leave for our boys hockey game which was almost an hour and a half away. Then to get home and make dinner, bedtime routine for a school day tomorrow.

As I was puttering around in the kitchen making a grocery list I began cleaning out the fridge and putting things that needed to be dumped on the counter.

My hubby had went and sat down to find the all star hockey happening and I could feel my anxiety begin to rise. I could feel my frustration as I thought we need to do, this, this and this before this time… It’s easy for me to escalate like this and panic begin to set in.

Out of frustration I asked hubby to “take care of this” as I pointed at the counter and walked out the door to get groceries. As I was driving I began to worry about the time but eased my mind that I still had lots of time.

I was home only 30 minutes later, still with lots of time to eat and put groceries away. I even got the dishwasher started, some dishes washed and asked hubby if he could make the guac for tonight.

After the game we came home and began into the evening routine. I finished up with the dishes and then began pulling things together for dinner. Pulled our supplements out and loaded up our week 2 supplements for the Cleanse we are doing and began laying organizing the other part of dinner when it hit me.

Today went so smooth and easy because I spoke up and asked. It then reminded me that as amazing of a man my hubby is, he’s not a freaking mind reader. Nor am I. He didn’t know what I needed or wanted done. Yet when I asked him, he had no problems helping me. Its OK to ask for help.

I’ve been feeling very reflective lately. In a very short time I’ve heard of alot of couples/families splitting. It breaks my heart. Obviously their situation is their own and their business. No judgment.

That could have been us. On at least a few occasions.

It really has made me reflect on where we have come from as individuals, a couple, parents and family.

Things that can and have tore people apart, we’ve found strength, love and understanding. A stronger bond.

By speaking up.

As I stood in our new kitchen this evening, my heart bursting with joy knowing that our custom kitchen, we put so much time into designing perfect for us (seriously alot lol), after speaking up and discussing together we’re getting closer to the finishing touches that make me SO excited!

A vision we both saw, with our own touches that we wouldn’t be enjoying if either of us hadn’t spoke up. One we designed together. A home we are transforming together.

I look back and am grateful that the things that just about broke us, pushed us to be stronger and because of that we are here today and its pretty freakin awesome!

If that had been us, we wouldn’t be here today. We wouldn’t be the people we are, experienced the things we’ve experienced and have the beautiful home we have.

I am grateful and thankful we each learned to speak up, follow our gut and communicate. Life will always throw us curve balls, sometimes when we least expect it. Its often to easy to make assumptions, or choose to be quiet, worry about about the “what if’s” and sometimes those worries are fear holding us back from something so much more incredible. We can grow so much more when we communicate, with ourselves, with each other.

I know every moment won’t always feel like this, daily life as parents, both of us working in our family business and more outside circumstances. However it certainly makes it easier to think back and remember on these moments of reflection to provide strength, to remember that if at ever at a crossroads, to choose to speak up. To always choose happiness. To know that there will be tough days, but when through them it is so incredibly awesome.

~ Always Speak Up ~