Living with PCOS, endometriosis and hypothyroidism can really dampen someones spirits… if you let it. After our daughter was born my husband and I began planning and talking about when I would be able to have my surgery we both knew I required, to live much more comfortably and most important have a much better quality of life.
As many parents, and full time working parents especially, you can plan all you want, but there will come a time that it just has to work. This is what happened to me this fall, I merely said to my husband, who had been telling me for over a year that I needed to have the surgery, that I was calling the doctor to book the surgery. I didn’t think twice about it, didn’t really even “plan” how we would make things work when I was out of commission. Never did I think I would get in so fast, but how thankful I was!
Looking back, I do wish I had done this sooner, would it have worked for us, with the kids being that little bit younger, mmmm probably not, The age they are, they were perfect little helpers to both hubby and I, it was wonderful. For years I put off my own health and sacrificed myself because I didn’t want to inconvenience others.
Never will I do that again.
Finally putting myself first was a break through for me as an individual, a mother, a wife, sister, daughter, friend etc… I felt immediate relief, immediate comfort upon my return home. Even my husband and I reached a new level in our relationship, there were countless times he just laid with me in bed and we talked, many evenings for hours upon hours, until we realized just how much time had passed. We have always had a close relationship, but this truly allowed us a great opportunity and time, as I spent most of my time resting, to truly reconnect on a level that we honestly hadn’t since our babies came into our life!
All of the wonderful times we have had as a couple and family for many more years before, when those times felt so wonderful – sure we had our good times and bad like every couple and family does – now finally feeling so much better, even though its been winter and we do not do as much, we have had SO much fun that we are even more excited for the summer, a summer that I will truly be able to enjoy my time with hubby and the kids!
Although I know the can and can-not’s for food, I still do not like to inconvenience if we are eating with others, the passive part of me. In the end though it only affects me and when it comes to food affecting me, its not good! With PCOS I must stay far away from anything made from white flour or white sugar – which yes makes it hard if I am eating somewhere and they serve pasta… I can only eat whole grain pasta, same with rice. Even potatoes I must limit, cooked carrots and sweet potatoes, even corn – all naturally full of sugar! And all affect me badly!
When I feel good, I feel gooood and its such a difference that I just love life so much more. Its amazing how one little slip can cause domino effects for days – its just not worth it. These are health issues I live with day to day, they are a part of me and there is no cure other than eating properly, getting lots of sleep, living a very happy and purposeful life … oh and exercise lol which I enjoy much more in the summer 😉
No I will not sacrifice myself. I will BE ME!